When something tragic happens, I instantly think “Well at least it didn’t happen to me.” But last night I actually heard a robbery happen right in the act, but I wasn’t sure what to do so I hid in my bathroom connected to my room. In hindsight, I should have told my dad. I don’t even know why I didn’t. I thought it was imagination going wild at first. I was pretty tired and such so I don’t think I was fully there. Then just a few minutes ago Dad told me what happened and then I spoke up and said all the details I could manage. There was a van, two male voices, and a house door slamming. I’m not sure if it was once or twice but there was a door. Also, the time was around 9:30 p.m., I think, about an hour after my bed time.
I feel as though I need to learn to be so cowardly and actually stand up and do something. I’m good at voicing and doing proactive things, but at this point and I realized I need to do more of the acting above the usual standard of a teenager. I mean the men who did this could have been caught, so I do take some guilt on that. However, I am just a teenager and there is a lot of growing up to do, as I just learned. I mean that reflects on my dad too. Like his daughter heard this, but didn’t do anything is pretty much what people might think. I can’t exactly pinpoint my emotions. Guilt comes to mind and so does a little bit of worry. I’ve already been told it’s not my fault but everybody does a good job at beating themselves up over nothing.
Which brings me to wonder what’s next because I didn’t stop them or do much; however, I did give important details about the ordeal. My dad says that I don’t have to worry about them coming back. But I think differently. Seeing as to how the events played off. Drugs were involved and sometimes robbers strike twice. They took my neighbors’ 60 inch TV and whatever else. The men also trashed out my neighbors house. So they may not come back, but they may have forgotten something. I know I won’t be able to stop thinking about this especially since I’m not even sure how to handle this.
Luckily no one got hurt, but I do feel bad for people who are serious addicts and I know this sometimes isn’t how a person may act. However, addicts need to get help and they can’t just take anything they no matter the circumstances. Whether it be to get back at someone or take something they can’t have, and this goes for everyone now that I think of it. Society is really messed up and all I can do is watch, learn, and maybe just maybe, overcome these dilemmas.