Here We Go Again

I can’t believe my first semester of college is a little over halfway through. I celebrated my birthday with purple hair and a new guy I can proudly call my boyfriend. He’s pretty cool and we vibe damn well with each other. Besides that, nothing has changed.

I’m playing Magic: The Gathering with a new group of friends and sleeping as little as possible. But I’m no longer really complaining. I’m just tired of being upset with myself when I am tired. I’ve learned that it’s okay to be exhausted. But it’s not okay to let it hinder your everyday activities.

Although I have been really busy, I’ve been trying to get my head around things lately. The past guy (whom I have mentioned before) just didn’t cut it for me anymore. There was something about that relationship that didn’t make me feel complete. I guess I just needed someone closer to me. In every aspect of the word.

As a girl, it’s stereotypical to go through a guy or two in life, but I think it’s dumb we limit ourselves to who we meet. I even said I was done with meeting new people. We’re never done with meeting new people and falling in love. We only have one life and we need to spend that time exploring the world around us. College did exactly that for me.

The first night of fall break, I had a few friends over and we just chilled for hours. I don’t think they cleared out until 1:30 am. On the first actual day of fall break, Thursday, my dad came up and I took him to my favorite taco place. After that, we went to Starbucks and I got a new coffee tumbler.  I went to Tulsa twice over my fall break. Once on Friday to go to a Magic tournament with the love and some friends of ours. Then on Saturday to a concert to see Finish Ticket, with just the love. I got to touch the lead singer when he crowd surfed. Sunday was my relaxation day with only half of it spent hanging out with friends.

With everything that has been going on, I think reflection right now is good for me. I’ve finally been able to get my bearings and actually feel genuine love for the people around me. I don’t think I could be doing better at this point. I’ve finally accepted I needed more than what I was given and where I need to be. I think I have found that point, but we’ll see where it goes.