Does the Rush Ever Kill You?

Lately, I’ve been running myself crazy to get things done; 24 hours is not long enough. Today I woke up early and did laundry, watched Bob’s Burgers and read a book. I also was able to complete my Composition work for the semester. Tomorrow will mark my final day of actual school work, and I’m ready for finals.

Seriously, I don’t have a single test I’m actually worried about, except maybe math. I can’t absorb numbers the same way I do words and it makes that class so much more difficult. I’m sure once I get my study guide, I’ll be fine.

Here’s the thing, I’m in core classes this semester. I’m not too worried about passing with a D. However, math is a pass/fail class and there’s a chance it’s going to take more than a study to get the gears going again. Although, I’m sure the test will be short. My professor said it should only take an hour to complete it.

Academics aren’t the only thing I have to plan out. During winter break, the love and I are going to be together off and on. The first Saturday, Dec. 17, is when we’ll have our first date night after this semester. We plan on going to dinner, doing a mini Christmas, and seeing Rogue One. He’s actually going to be in my home town and I couldn’t be more excited for him to come down again.

We had such a blast last time with a few of my friends and maybe we’ll all get together again.

Applebee’s at 9 p.m. is the best thing ever. Half priced appetizers is literally the best thing in the world. Although it’s late, we somehow find a way to be there for a good two hours with just as much energy as when we started.

Having people who love you, help you get through school and make sure you’re okay are gift in this world. If it weren’t for most of these people in my life, I wouldn’t be as all right as I am now. I absolutely enjoy my position in life, especially since it’s the homestretch of school. This doesn’t mean I won’t kick and scream, but I know I won’t be in distress for long.


Here We Go Again

I can’t believe my first semester of college is a little over halfway through. I celebrated my birthday with purple hair and a new guy I can proudly call my boyfriend. He’s pretty cool and we vibe damn well with each other. Besides that, nothing has changed.

I’m playing Magic: The Gathering with a new group of friends and sleeping as little as possible. But I’m no longer really complaining. I’m just tired of being upset with myself when I am tired. I’ve learned that it’s okay to be exhausted. But it’s not okay to let it hinder your everyday activities.

Although I have been really busy, I’ve been trying to get my head around things lately. The past guy (whom I have mentioned before) just didn’t cut it for me anymore. There was something about that relationship that didn’t make me feel complete. I guess I just needed someone closer to me. In every aspect of the word.

As a girl, it’s stereotypical to go through a guy or two in life, but I think it’s dumb we limit ourselves to who we meet. I even said I was done with meeting new people. We’re never done with meeting new people and falling in love. We only have one life and we need to spend that time exploring the world around us. College did exactly that for me.

The first night of fall break, I had a few friends over and we just chilled for hours. I don’t think they cleared out until 1:30 am. On the first actual day of fall break, Thursday, my dad came up and I took him to my favorite taco place. After that, we went to Starbucks and I got a new coffee tumbler.  I went to Tulsa twice over my fall break. Once on Friday to go to a Magic tournament with the love and some friends of ours. Then on Saturday to a concert to see Finish Ticket, with just the love. I got to touch the lead singer when he crowd surfed. Sunday was my relaxation day with only half of it spent hanging out with friends.

With everything that has been going on, I think reflection right now is good for me. I’ve finally been able to get my bearings and actually feel genuine love for the people around me. I don’t think I could be doing better at this point. I’ve finally accepted I needed more than what I was given and where I need to be. I think I have found that point, but we’ll see where it goes.

College is Killer

Okay, I’ve now been murdering myself for a month. My classes have officially been in full swing and I’ve had little to no sleep. However, I have had a lot of love from friends and a close guy. I think I’ve mastered this social life part.

Academically, I think I’ll do fine. I really don’t see myself falling behind. In fact, I’ve worked too far ahead that I don’t know what to do with myself. I’m so used to deadlines and knocking out tasks the second I get them that handing a full schedule to me isn’t the best. I also remember everything I’ve read/written.

I do miss my dad. He’s kind of been a secondary since I’ve moved. He knows when I’m having a bad or good day, but Father doesn’t know how I’m physically doing. My eyes have slightly darkened since moving and my acne has gotten a little worse. I need to do a lot of things with myself in the health department actually. However, walking around campus has actually built some leg muscle.

I need to do a lot of things with myself in the health department actually. However, walking around campus has actually built some leg muscle.

Freshman 15 may not hit me too hard because I have been watching what I eat, but also understanding that I can’t just starve myself and call that good. It’s probably a good thing I’m gaining some weight, honestly.

Anyway, I’m sorry I haven’t been on here as often. I’ve finally got my schedule down and doing what I need to do. How is everyone doing, though? Any advice on college issues or life?


A Late Night Post About Life

Recently I realized that sometimes relationships and friendships are forever. My best friends and I still talk a lot. Even though I’ve been a bit more indoorsy than I have been all year.

Relationships are difficult, however. My last year crush is turning out to be pretty perfect. However, we’ll be closing the distance gap here soon and I’m really unsure but excited. Totally excited to at least go on a couple of real dates and not go a month not seeing each other.

I’m not a sucker for love. I just enjoy the romantic comedies a bit too much and I’ve found that in this guy. As I lay here at 2 am listening to Angels by The Xx, I’m not sure what to feel. I know I should be focused on college more than a guy, but prepping for both brought me closer to this point.

Literally, this whole summer has been about moving out and taking things slow. There’s a lot of hype around the house and my nighttime writing sessions really seem to make me realize it’s okay to slow down and think.

I don’t do enough of the whole slowing down. I probably have missed a few really great opportunities with a few friends because of that this summer. Something about being all work and very little play made me a bit of a stiff.

Recently, however, I picked up playing Halo and a few other video games before I leave. I know that’s not really much, but Pokemon Go is currently at a halt until I get my new phone. I usually socialize at a nearby park and meet other trainers.

There is something about Pokemon Go that has brought me back to my friends and outdoors. Usually, I just go to the gym or workout at home doing basic stuff. Not really much else.

I just have 15 days until I move out. This is really hard to take in right now. Like wow. I didn’t waste a summer did I? I enjoyed my time alone. But did I miss anything serious? Oh goodness, I still haven’t birthday shopped for a couple of people. August needs to chill. I don’t want to be that busy in just a couple of weeks or so.

The Final Stretch Before College

Well, my summer is practically over. It’s driving me crazy that my phone crashes just 20 days before I move. Dad is ordering my phone this morning and I should have in three to five days.

However, there’s still a car to find and textbooks to be ordered. I suppose that’s about all I really need for now.

Besides the final preps, I’m already missing friends. Most of us have been together for several years now, some when I first moved in about 6 years ago. There’s a special person who will be in my area and I know we’ll hang out a few times before my classes begin. I’m just worried my schedule will get crazy a little fast and I focus too much on one thing.

I’m used to having a social life and school. School work is usually done the second I have homework and I work on it for days on end. Then hang out with friends in between projects or if I’m in dire need of a break. This semester will new. I’m going to actually have a part time job somewhere that won’t mess with my academic schedule. Maybe Starbucks will be a good choice.

About a week or so into my move, I want to have purple in my hair. Just light touches. Nothing too serious. I still need to look decently professional.

I guess that’s literally all I have going on right now. There aren’t any good movies this month and video games are becoming prominent in my life before I leave behind the Xbox 360 for a while. My roommate still hasn’t contacted me and I’m getting a little worried about what happened to the contract. But I won’t stress until a little later.

It’s Over.

I graduated high school. Done. Over. Tears never fell. I didn’t trip before or after graduation.

Before I walked the stage, I had a dinner at a country club. My gifts were a MacBook Air (about a year old) and a Kendra Scott necklace.

I had fun at project graduation competing with a friend and only winning a couple of times. I love a friendly competition. I walked out with $240 as well, half of that was just for showing up.

That’s not all that’s happened. I finished my classes with A’s and B’s (GPA is still dumb) and built a hovercraft for physics.

Oh, that’s another thing I’ll miss. My physics class was bomb. Pretty much everyone in there had something to contribute, most of the time. They were all unique and madly fun, for the most part. They were like a third family, behind my newspaper and real families. I’m going to miss that bunch. My teacher, who made everything happen, was probably one of the best science teachers I’ve had. There’s an understatement to that, she was.

I also don’t know what I’m to do without my newspaper family. I know I’ll find another one soon. But for now, I’m an orphan missing their first journo mom (journalism mom) ever. That’s kind of hard to believe I spent all four years in her class. Intro, newspaper, digi comm and teacher aid all in that time. Like damn. I’ll be back to visit her lots and lots. I get home sick way easy and I already am. Because it wasn’t the three different rooms that made it home, it was the staff.

Without that class and those amazing groups, I would never have picked my major in journalism. In fact, I would be stuck in fashion merchandising just trying to figure out who I am still. Freshman me got a reality check sophomore year there: “Sports reporting is your life home girl.”

But every year was a time to become stronger, better. To learn and pass and fail and carry on. High school is where you find yourself. College seems like the time to become yourself. From what I’m finding there’s not a giant leap. I’ll just be alone and paying some minor bills (thank you, Dad for helping out!) and studying as late as I already do.

I’m excited to become who I was meant to be and continue doing what I love. I’m also ready for half price entry to COLLEGE games! I might even have a camera by next spring to take to the events.

For now, I’m typing away at a computer and getting basic school supplies that I know I’ll need. Ew, I just remembered I need to supply my own stapler and tape. Adulting isn’t as fun when you realize everything that’s involved. The sadness is almost real.

How do you adults cope with growing up? Seriously, I’m still young and feel like I’m under pressure. Just looking back I realized how much I’ve matured into the person I am now. Any suggestions on how to be an adult? I’ll need it!

Someone Made Progress

After all this time in Starbucks today, I have checked almost everything off of my list of things to do.

I finished the presentation to my research paper. I also finished said paper. Final edits and all. I couldn’t be more proud. I also can’t believe how much work I’ve been able to accomplish.

I also drew a picture for my art journal. It’s not the new fad of making off lists and being a mini journalist. It’s me creating little drawings during my time not working. Which is super rare.

There has been major work done in my journalism department. With three stories done in record time, and then some, I think I can pretty much tackle my future in the profession.

One thing that bothers me, is not knowing how to just relax and not always do something that has to do with school.

My friend asked me about what I do for fun and I really had to think long and hard. Besides covering my favorite sports, movies seem to always be the only interest I have.

The black and white crime movies with mobsters are my favorite. Nothing sparks my attention more than a good culprit and a wild police chase.

Even though it’s highly unlikely, I might be able to stay ahead of the game for the next week on my school work. Okay, maybe until Tuesday. But still I’ll be able to rest and not be too stressed during that time.

I have to give special thanks to the Starbucks Wi-Fi and my laptop for holding up on battery today. I couldn’t do it without you both!

How is everyone doing with their work of any kind? Any major productivity happening?