Here We Go Again

I can’t believe my first semester of college is a little over halfway through. I celebrated my birthday with purple hair and a new guy I can proudly call my boyfriend. He’s pretty cool and we vibe damn well with each other. Besides that, nothing has changed.

I’m playing Magic: The Gathering with a new group of friends and sleeping as little as possible. But I’m no longer really complaining. I’m just tired of being upset with myself when I am tired. I’ve learned that it’s okay to be exhausted. But it’s not okay to let it hinder your everyday activities.

Although I have been really busy, I’ve been trying to get my head around things lately. The past guy (whom I have mentioned before) just didn’t cut it for me anymore. There was something about that relationship that didn’t make me feel complete. I guess I just needed someone closer to me. In every aspect of the word.

As a girl, it’s stereotypical to go through a guy or two in life, but I think it’s dumb we limit ourselves to who we meet. I even said I was done with meeting new people. We’re never done with meeting new people and falling in love. We only have one life and we need to spend that time exploring the world around us. College did exactly that for me.

The first night of fall break, I had a few friends over and we just chilled for hours. I don’t think they cleared out until 1:30 am. On the first actual day of fall break, Thursday, my dad came up and I took him to my favorite taco place. After that, we went to Starbucks and I got a new coffee tumbler.  I went to Tulsa twice over my fall break. Once on Friday to go to a Magic tournament with the love and some friends of ours. Then on Saturday to a concert to see Finish Ticket, with just the love. I got to touch the lead singer when he crowd surfed. Sunday was my relaxation day with only half of it spent hanging out with friends.

With everything that has been going on, I think reflection right now is good for me. I’ve finally been able to get my bearings and actually feel genuine love for the people around me. I don’t think I could be doing better at this point. I’ve finally accepted I needed more than what I was given and where I need to be. I think I have found that point, but we’ll see where it goes.


School Starts (un)Sweetly

Well, it’s another year. I’m totally exhausted and I’m only a week in.

So far I have done 477 painful vocabulary definitions in roughly 3 and a half days, attended senior meetings and applied to a college. Not to mention Algebra III and physics homework.

This is normal though. Well, not the vocabulary, but the homework. The work is all tedious review from previous years. Not very interesting, but still needed. I think my main headache comes from a severe lack of sleep.

I don’t think I’ve actually slept decent since school started. In fact, most teenagers don’t understand how needed sleep is to finish all this excessive work. A teenager should be getting 8 to 10 hours of sleep, but we’re not getting it. A solution to this was a brilliant idea of late start Mondays. Seriously, I’m all for this! But my messy lifestyle may not be improved. I’ll only stay up later get about my normal 6-7 hours of sleep no matter what. So a goal is to actually sleep by 9:30 and wake up at 7 or so on these late start days. However, for now, I think I should be striving for that goal. But making it is hard.

Do you ever just set a goal and you can’t quite make it because of outside distractions? Don’t lie. You have. Everyone has. It’s sadly becoming a colossal issue for me to make these goals with the ability to stay awake during the day. I don’t want to rely on coffee more than I already do, but I’m simply tired of not being able to sleep at night for no good reason.

Do my fellow followers have any suggestions on how to help a sleeping issue without medications? Or even a way to numb the pain of being awake 18 hours until I get on a proper schedule? Thanks!

Back to the Grind

I’ve been back at school for a week now and honestly, I don’t miss the sleeping in. I just miss the fact there wasn’t a lot of stress during that time. I don’t mind school, in fact I really enjoy the hard schedule and work to match. However, there is stress that comes with this and it’s not that fun of a stress. There’s a good stress that minds you things need to be done, but there’s another stress which just makes you feel so overwhelmed by almost everything school has to offer.

I think I’ve gotten the hang of handling the stress over the years, but it feels as though it may never go away. This makes things seem almost impossible to deal with. I still feel the pain and suffering of any other high school student, but I think the only way to handle it is to study. I hate studying, but I get it done. Sadly, most teenagers don’t do this. It’s almost as though we can still manage to skim by without it and teachers don’t really do much. Maybe we had proof studying helps then it should help them with teaching us.

Another way to I found to reduce stress is to get a good nights’ rest. This means the 8 and half to 10 hour of sleep that is recommended by doctors and whoever else is there to back up that fact. I was able to tackle this week better than last week because I was able to get more sleep. Last week was certainly very difficult due to the fact I got, at most, 6 hours of sleep each night. Well, I guess that’s expected.

Shopping and doing the things I do best are probably the best way for me to get over a long week. Now, I do this over the weekend when I know I don’t have a lot of things to do. This gives me time to think and relax a little bit. Even if it’s just a few hours of relief,it’s better than nothing. Starbucks runs are just great for the soul to begin with so it’s just an added bonus. On Sundays, I do some sort of studying for school and then I do some cleaning up in my room.

So with all of my busy days I do find ways to hang out and chill. I don’t really do much beyond this little set up of mine, but it did take time to perfect and with it now in motion I will eventually find ways to tweak it. Little things sometimes seem to be over looked, but that’s why they count so much.